The end of the Journey

Well, it has been more than a year.
Perhaps we were not supposed to be together in the 1st place
I guess our past relationship was just like this blog
I wrote most of the post here, and in real life i sacrificed more than u..
In the end you just don't really appreciate..
Now its just unfortunate that this journey will not go on.

Thx for the moment anyway. I will try to forget everything.
This will be the last post.

Bye.

HANG

Take it Easy

Dear Asako, I know you have been extremely busy recently. You are starting a new term in college and have many many matters and troublesome issues to be settled. You don't have enough sleep, you don't have the time to take a proper meal. You probably don't have time to read this blog, or even know that I have written something for you. I write this just to let you know that I care about you even if it takes weeks from now for you to read this.

I feel your unhappiness and that has affected my mood as well. Within the last few days we hardly talk or chat. I don't know how are you doing. Are you fine? or are you crying alone without telling me?

I believe you can face all your challenges. At the same time, I have to endure the fact that I will receive less company from you. Nevertheless, I can see through your heart and know that I am inside all the time although you don't have the time to think too much about me right now. It's only 40 days left before our reunion. By then we will have all the moment we want.

You are used to being happy so please don't let these things bring you down. You have my support and my comfort. If anything happens, please don't hide from me. I want to share some of your worries. I can't let your tender shoulders to bear all these heavy burdens.

I can't wait to go back now and I wish that I could see a beautiful smile on your face by then. Come on, take it easy. Everything will be fine, just be strong ok? I have faith in you.

Please smile and be happy always.

Love from dear.

The remaining days

I am still waiting
patiently
to the day

when I leave this place

when I board the airplane

when I return home

when I see you in the airport

when U shed tears of happiness

when I embrace U in my arms

when I can say I miss U so much

All left is 59 days to OUR long awaited moment

asako's feelings

I didn't write blog for a long time, so today I want to write down all my feelings after my dear leave me ....
To my dear,
From the day that you leave , asako feel very sad and don't know what can I do. I still remember the first few weeks when i just simply eat some bread and biscuits to pass the days...I on my skype and msn almost 24 hours everyday so I can contact with dear and see him... I really really miss him ...
Dear, you know that I really cant lose you. I need you everyday ... I need your accompany , need your help, need your care. In my life I feel that the God treats me well by giving a nice dear to me. Thank You, God. I will never never regret that you become my dear, I am very happy that fate let us meet together. I need your shoulder,your hand , your hug your love. I need you to help me up from difficult positions.
I really feel lonely even if I have mz, sappire and viny (my 3 good friends) accompanying me. I hope that the person accompanying me now is my dear.I can't do anything because all the time I can only think of you. My tears keep dropping automatically because I can only look at you from webcam, album , our video ... I just can look for your image without touching you ...
Dear already leave me for 7 months but i still love you. I need you to tell me sweety "I love You" in front of me. I don't want to just talk on phone or online and hear the kiss sound only.... when this kind of life will end? By the way i still need to wait for 10 weeks and 4 days more . Whatever it takes I will wait for you to come back....all the things that I do for you is because I love u so much. in the future I need you to accompany me for all my life ... dear I love you....

Valentine

Ocean's apart


Waiting to see you


Wish to have the greatest moment with you


Want to share the colours of life with you


Happy Valentine my love


I


Love


You

Memoirs

After my bday and CNY, tons of memories keep flowing through my mind.

I begin to recall the time before I stepped foot on this foreign land. I remember the days after my SPM, probably the most dynamic part of my life. Within 2 years I have gone to KTJ, National Service, Inti, Taylors, and finally UBC. So many different people have I met, so many things have I encountered. I recollect the time when I was uncertain about my future education and the suffering yet worth remembering 1.5 months of training in an isolated camp far from the familiar place I am used to be. I think about the sweet time in Taylors, when I fully enjoyed your company.

I look back at the days of my secondary school, when I had numerous funs with old buddies, and our first meeting 4 years ago, when we began as friends. I reminisce my childhood, my elementary school, my hometown, my home and family. These memories seem clear in my mind. I can almost remember every significant event happening every year as early as 3 years old. Time really does pass at a tremendous pace. I am already 20 this year.

There is no doubt now that I really miss home. I cannot deny that I do feel lucky for being able to study in this terrific place in Canada. Everything is prefect here, except that it lacks the feeling of home and love which one needs at times of hardship. I miss almost everything back home, the people, undeniably the food, my family, my room, my own bed, the CNY atmosphere and nice holidays. I miss you.

Love in a relationship is somewhat an addiction. I do not lose your precious love once I boarded the plane but I am unable to get the most of your company and care. I have been through some of the worst times in my life here in UBC. There are some concerns and feelings that I would never have worried before this. Nonetheless these will not trouble me as long as you are mentally by my side. I miss your comforting hug, your voice and your smile that will bring the joy out of my heart.

There are 93 days remaining before I finally finish my long waiting here to go home. By then I can spend 4 months to fully appreciate everything back home. I can’t wait to see you back. I want to be with you. I know you have been waiting for my return, patiently. I know it is hard for you too without me for the last 5 months, but let’s just wait and pray for the best as our waiting will end soon. We have to be strong and firm for the next 4 years and for many years to come.

Your love will bring me home.

Still waiting

This blog is ignored recently but the feelings contained in it persist
Both of us are having holidays now but yet could not enjoy to the fullest
Perhaps i can only be truly happy with your company

Some might have doubts and some might be critiques
But those words can be forgotten easily as they will never be a threat
Only what we say about ourselves matters

Your waiting will end soon
I promise you that as long you endure these moments of hardship
There will be happiness when the time comes

This is only a test
The result will depend on both of us
It will not be a problem
We are sure about it