h@NG & As@ko

The end of the Journey

2009-03-29T16:39:00.000-07:00

Well, it has been more than a year.
Perhaps we were not supposed to be together in the 1st place
I guess our past relationship was just like this blog
I wrote most of the post here, and in real life i sacrificed more than u..
In the end you just don't really appreciate..
Now its just unfortunate that this journey will not go on.

Thx for the moment anyway. I will try to forget everything.
This will be the last post.

Bye.

HANG

Take it Easy

2009-03-20T12:17:00.000-07:00

Dear Asako, I know you have been extremely busy recently. You are starting a new term in college and have many many matters and troublesome issues to be settled. You don't have enough sleep, you don't have the time to take a proper meal. You probably don't have time to read this blog, or even know that I have written something for you. I write this just to let you know that I care about you even if it takes weeks from now for you to read this.

I feel your unhappiness and that has affected my mood as well. Within the last few days we hardly talk or chat. I don't know how are you doing. Are you fine? or are you crying alone without telling me?

I believe you can face all your challenges. At the same time, I have to endure the fact that I will receive less company from you. Nevertheless, I can see through your heart and know that I am inside all the time although you don't have the time to think too much about me right now. It's only 40 days left before our reunion. By then we will have all the moment we want.

You are used to being happy so please don't let these things bring you down. You have my support and my comfort. If anything happens, please don't hide from me. I want to share some of your worries. I can't let your tender shoulders to bear all these heavy burdens.

I can't wait to go back now and I wish that I could see a beautiful smile on your face by then. Come on, take it easy. Everything will be fine, just be strong ok? I have faith in you.

Please smile and be happy always.

Love from dear.

The remaining days

2009-03-03T22:35:00.000-08:00

I am still waiting
patiently
to the day

when I leave this place

when I board the airplane

when I return home

when I see you in the airport

when U shed tears of happiness

when I embrace U in my arms

when I can say I miss U so much

All left is 59 days to OUR long awaited moment

asako's feelings

2009-02-17T04:42:00.000-08:00

I didn't write blog for a long time, so today I want to write down all my feelings after my dear leave me ....
To my dear,
From the day that you leave , asako feel very sad and don't know what can I do. I still remember the first few weeks when i just simply eat some bread and biscuits to pass the days...I on my skype and msn almost 24 hours everyday so I can contact with dear and see him... I really really miss him ...
Dear, you know that I really cant lose you. I need you everyday ... I need your accompany , need your help, need your care. In my life I feel that the God treats me well by giving a nice dear to me. Thank You, God. I will never never regret that you become my dear, I am very happy that fate let us meet together. I need your shoulder,your hand , your hug your love. I need you to help me up from difficult positions.
I really feel lonely even if I have mz, sappire and viny (my 3 good friends) accompanying me. I hope that the person accompanying me now is my dear.I can't do anything because all the time I can only think of you. My tears keep dropping automatically because I can only look at you from webcam, album , our video ... I just can look for your image without touching you ...
Dear already leave me for 7 months but i still love you. I need you to tell me sweety "I love You" in front of me. I don't want to just talk on phone or online and hear the kiss sound only.... when this kind of life will end? By the way i still need to wait for 10 weeks and 4 days more . Whatever it takes I will wait for you to come back....all the things that I do for you is because I love u so much. in the future I need you to accompany me for all my life ... dear I love you....

Valentine

2009-02-14T16:20:00.000-08:00

Ocean's apart

Waiting to see you

Wish to have the greatest moment with you

Want to share the colours of life with you

Happy Valentine my love

I

Love

You

Memoirs

2009-01-27T00:34:00.001-08:00

After my bday and CNY, tons of memories keep flowing through my mind.

I begin to recall the time before I stepped foot on this foreign land. I remember the days after my SPM, probably the most dynamic part of my life. Within 2 years I have gone to KTJ, National Service, Inti, Taylors, and finally UBC. So many different people have I met, so many things have I encountered. I recollect the time when I was uncertain about my future education and the suffering yet worth remembering 1.5 months of training in an isolated camp far from the familiar place I am used to be. I think about the sweet time in Taylors, when I fully enjoyed your company.

I look back at the days of my secondary school, when I had numerous funs with old buddies, and our first meeting 4 years ago, when we began as friends. I reminisce my childhood, my elementary school, my hometown, my home and family. These memories seem clear in my mind. I can almost remember every significant event happening every year as early as 3 years old. Time really does pass at a tremendous pace. I am already 20 this year.

There is no doubt now that I really miss home. I cannot deny that I do feel lucky for being able to study in this terrific place in Canada. Everything is prefect here, except that it lacks the feeling of home and love which one needs at times of hardship. I miss almost everything back home, the people, undeniably the food, my family, my room, my own bed, the CNY atmosphere and nice holidays. I miss you.

Love in a relationship is somewhat an addiction. I do not lose your precious love once I boarded the plane but I am unable to get the most of your company and care. I have been through some of the worst times in my life here in UBC. There are some concerns and feelings that I would never have worried before this. Nonetheless these will not trouble me as long as you are mentally by my side. I miss your comforting hug, your voice and your smile that will bring the joy out of my heart.

There are 93 days remaining before I finally finish my long waiting here to go home. By then I can spend 4 months to fully appreciate everything back home. I can’t wait to see you back. I want to be with you. I know you have been waiting for my return, patiently. I know it is hard for you too without me for the last 5 months, but let’s just wait and pray for the best as our waiting will end soon. We have to be strong and firm for the next 4 years and for many years to come.

Your love will bring me home.

Still waiting

2008-12-22T15:50:00.000-08:00

This blog is ignored recently but the feelings contained in it persist
Both of us are having holidays now but yet could not enjoy to the fullest
Perhaps i can only be truly happy with your company

Some might have doubts and some might be critiques
But those words can be forgotten easily as they will never be a threat
Only what we say about ourselves matters

Your waiting will end soon
I promise you that as long you endure these moments of hardship
There will be happiness when the time comes

This is only a test
The result will depend on both of us
It will not be a problem
We are sure about it

Missing

2008-10-27T14:21:00.000-07:00

I really miss you. You are so sweet so cute
It is so comfortable to be with you.
Love you.

The trip to Taiwan

2008-10-04T09:47:00.000-07:00

As you know, going for holidays is a very happy time but i don know why , feel no mood, however. u can see at the picture that i can smile but in my heart i still think n miss hang ....if hang can follow me to join this trip , then that will be most wonderful n meaningful for my holidays....

First day:

Saturday morning 1am from Batu Pahat to Singapore Changi Airport...Reach the airport around 4.30am

Having my breakfast at this Changi Kopi Tiam...( c got a lot of ppl)

So far yet so near

2008-09-26T07:41:00.001-07:00

Time does flies
A month has passed
Since I left you
On this path

We are distant apart
Only physically
Our hearts
Shall be bonded together

We are so far
From each other
But we feel we are
So near to each other

Separation is not
To be grieved on
But to be thought
As a challenge
Towards greater love.

If our minds and souls
Are connected
I am just beside you
If you look deep
Into your heart.

We will be together
Although we are so far apart.

Sincerity

2008-09-23T16:52:00.000-07:00

My fairest sweet heart
Though you cannot send me
A wonderful gift you have prepared
I have already received the message
And understand your sincerity.

Please don't be sad
For I will not be disappointed
Even if I cannot receive the gift
The best present for me
Is that you smile and be happy
Every day without crying.

I know you are trying your best
So you can do something special for me
I am grad of course
But the most special thing
Will your love for me.

You have nice gifts from me
And I have lovely presents from you
The one present we share together
Is our relationship - our love.

Hang 2 Asako

Sad

2008-09-23T09:47:00.000-07:00

sad..... do something for my hang dear dear , but cant success send it to him ..haiz... how ???

I Love You

2008-09-23T01:06:00.000-07:00

No Tears

2008-09-17T06:49:00.000-07:00

Asako you must not cry
I will come back eventually
Do not waste your tears
Crying for my absence

You should save your tears
And cry out loud
When you see me next time
And shed tears of happiness

as@ko upset....

2008-09-16T20:41:00.000-07:00

asako's heart crying ....

Holidays so boring

2008-09-16T20:30:00.000-07:00

haiyo, so boring.... watever having holidays now but i cant feel dat happy .... dat is bcoz hang not around asako ??This is the 1st holidays without hang accompany , but i can believe hang's heart stil keep asako beside him.Ya,asako also ....27sep , asako going 2 Taiwan wif family but stil cannot feel dat kind of excitant, dat is bcoz hang ???n maybe 1 weeks cant contact with hang also ...

Dear, u are not alone in yr life

2008-09-13T21:46:00.000-07:00

this is the only thing that i can do when my dear getting frust

Day by Day

2008-09-12T20:12:00.000-07:00

Day by Day,
Our love journey continues...

Day by Day,
We grow to up to learn more about each other...

Day by Day,
We will miss and remember each other...

Day by Day,
You will wait for my return,
and let me embrace you in my arms,
then we will value everything that we have...

I love you, MY BAOBEI...

nothing: just love

2008-09-07T20:43:00.000-07:00

Two weeks has passed
and I am missing you more
Nothing can change
Nothing can be an obstacle
Nothing will stop me
from loving you more

Sometimes these things do happen but...

2008-05-26T09:27:00.000-07:00

Sometimes misunderstandings do happen
Sometimes conflicts might occur
But no matter what
As long as you know what is deep inside our hearts
These troublesome things will never become our problem

Forgive and forget the mistakes
Recall and remember the sweet thoughts
Good memories shall last forever
Only the good things will stay perpetually
To accompany both in the long journey of merged souls

aLL the Be$t ,gambateh,dear

2008-05-25T06:59:00.000-07:00

dear dear, this 3 days without u really very sad....sob sob....but anywhere this 2 weeks u must work extra hard 2 get gd result for yr final exam ,this is yr future ....all the best , good luck....

misses

2008-05-16T00:56:00.000-07:00

Let me start by saying that when a girl misses a boy, she thinks of him day and night , she dreams of him when she sleeps , she makes herselflooks lovely and waits for her love 2 return and kiss her, she wants her love 2 know how much she miss him and need support of his shoulder . This is how you love me dear .. and i swear that i love u ...i wil give whatever you want 2 love u

lovely message to a special one

2008-05-05T10:34:00.000-07:00

Dear so notty...alwayz bully me
haha
nvm loh
as usual i will giv u wat u wan
bcuz i m the only one who can sweet talk 2 u
n u r the only girl i can treat as my sweet heart
how i very feel like seeing my dear hug u n kiss u n hold u at my arms
it seems tat 2 weeks not seeing u is like forever
i miss u 2 much dy dear
once we meet i wan 2 show u my love
sleep now
n rmb tat i will love u alwayz